splattered

If you asked me how

I would feel back then,

I couldn't have the answers.

If you ask me how I feel now,

I will not have you answered.

Free to live to the foolest,

free to be in disgrace.

Lost to be found once again,

living to be dead another day.

I punish you with my kindness,

I blame myself in my ways.

I hope I find my peace,

I long to be away.